I am a bit down while writing this, but I will continue to write anyway because I want to express my feelings about this maybe I will feel better afterwards. Aids is a reality and people are dying left and right, in urban areas, townships, villages there is just no place to hide from this desease(sp). Sometimes when people talk about it at a disatance on radio, tv etc its not as serious as when you see people dying because of it in front of your eyes feeling helpless especially your own family members and close friends. Most people don't understand this until it hits their own families maybe what is painful is not that they have this uncurable diseases but the way it kills them is what really is painfull for me.
I have lost a close family member from this disease, she was really close to me we went to school together until tertiary that is how how close we were, she started being sick few years ago but became serious 2 years back, started loosing weight, became very sick, sometimes looked like she has lost her mind, couldn't move until to a stage where she couldn't talk move or even eat and you could only see bones and she passed away last year in March. This disease is very cruel... Not because it took her away from me but because of how it took her away from me.
Now I have 2 more family members 1 is also very close to me he is also dying because of this, He is now at a stage where the pain is written in his face, when you look at him your eyes become full of tears but you also want to be strong for him so that he can be strong.
I am not sure how am i supposed to handle this, society expects me to continue working like every thing is normal, wake up in the morning go to work and come back but inside my heart is in pieces because of this. This is becoming too much for me as an individual. On one hand I can't just leave my job and go and look after my dying family and friends because I have responsibilities and financila commitments.
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I know what you mean. Everybody is dying but no one wants to listen.
Aids what can I say!!!? I do not want to focus more on the dying part, I don't think it is a matter of people not listening. People act as nature intends, no one is exempt from this dreadful disease, you could be as faithfull as you can be, you could condomise as much as you like, you could be as responsible as you can be, the reality is, if fate intend you to contract the disease you will. Hear me well I do not condone irresponsible sexual behavior. I am trying to say we should not assume that just because people have this disease, it is a mere case of not listening. The more effective means of running away from this disease would be abstainance and it is not 100% aids proof because there are sex craved animals out there who would sodomise and /or rape one who devote themselves to abstainace and celibacy. Basically we need to support those of us who are unfortunate enough to contract the disease without putting blame on any party. We are all affected, and its no longer the matter of awareness it is just a reality we need to accept and deal with.
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