Some pics from Xmas party tsa ko mberekong

Xmas Parties

Eish....not sure i should be saying anything about Xmas parties. Anyway i just went to one this friday. It was FUN....what defines fun for me is loud music and lots of meat........number of people really doesn't matter. Will talk more on this issue later on

Cape Town...ag no no my mistake its Pretoria (The smaller version of Cape Town)

Ok, K....I waited until I was not angry any more before I could write this article. Guys, guys , guys kanti Cape Town and Pretoria do these towns have a problem ye racism or what?? I lived in Cape Town for a couple of years but the racism was just too much maan i couldn't handle it, now am in PTA thought Ok i have moved away from people who don't understand that this is a new South African so we are all equal as "lilizwe lethu sonke" Some guys who are more or less pink really need counselling you know. I thought by now every one understands that we are in a new South Africa.

Believe me there are people who cannot accept change or who cannot handle change very well. C'mmon guys its almost 15yrs now after 1994. How long should we be understanding or accomodating to these people..how many more years? should we understand forever or what? somwbody tell me please because I am really struggling to make sense of some things that happen.

Now my story, what really happened this Saturday? I might be reading this wrongly please guys be honest with me and tell me No Thandi, You are seeing things....u a too obsessed with racism, u see it even when its not there....

Ok, to the story now, we were going to the airport with a friend of mine and her BF (I shall call them Sarah and John). John was driving neh, Don't know street names guys so please forgive me about that too. So we turned in one of the streets to go towards JHB, and after turning we realised that we had made a wrong turn, it was going to take too long to the airport so we decided we want to turn back neh....so it was one of these one ways to JHB grass in between then another one way from JHB to PTA on the other side of the grass. So there John goes he applies brakes and we went out of the road, now were were on the grass trying to get to the other side of the road, so we drove slowly towards the other side so we could join the cars coming from JHB, then we waited for the right time, then indeed we joined the traffic from JHB, the road was clear , there was only one big 4 by4 car which was travelling on the fast lane and thina we were joining the slow lane....indeed we joined. OK this white guy in a big white 4 by 4 hooted and we all thought Ok, he is telling us that we have done something wrong which is fine, that is how people on the road maybe talk to each other as drivers.

The next thing i saw this big car leaving its lane cooming to our lane with the intention of pushing us out of the road, so i thought now what's happening here....road rage...aha...started sweating......John tried to avoid the car but it kept on pushing us outside the road, then John decided to indicate to the other lane so we can be behind this car indeed that happened. Worse happened when i thought we have managed to avoid him, the car,....this big car stopped infront of us when trying to go to the right it also did the same, when we try left it does the same, Ok, we stopped cause we couldn't move now...and other cars wanted to pass mind you because this was in the middle of a road....tried to swerve to the far left then we managed to run atleats away from being hit by the big car, so we came at the robbots.................................!!!

U don't wanna know what happened at the robbots............we all stopped at the robbots and he stepped out of his car and came straight to our car to the driver's door....I havw got no idea what his intentions were, when he came out of his car....but he was very angry already we locked our doors, then he went for John's door and when it couldn't open he smashed the car windscreen with no luck and he tried again with the mirror and the mirror was broken so the robbots opened and we left.

So what is still in my mind is what was that guy going to do to John if the doors were not locked? if he feels we were so wrong why didn't he take our number plate and report us to authorities? why did he make it his business?

I salute John for being so calm during this whole act on Saturday cause i think if it was somebody else they would have lost the cool...finish and klaar.

The Choice - --Book by Mckanzie (excuse my spelling)

The Choice-----I have just finished reading this book......be aware or be warned that this book is quiet explicit and graphic but its a good read guys. Its a good book to read, please guys go and buy it. Its not for sensitive readers!!!

My week

My week is promising to be a fruitful one. On Friday am moving to my own place, Sat my kids are coming over wow what more can a gal ask for? Haybo did i tell you that I am an official runner, i run marathons...hahaha maybe not marathons ke i run those things the 5km's and 10km's with this club. I was introduced to the running by a good friend of mine, believe me you I am enjoying it now. Every saturday there is an activity going on.....marathon taking place somewhere....gees gal I am gonna be so fit uyayazi moss. Ok yha I have got my first medal over the weekend on Saturday......nice hey...n..i...c...e. Watch the space this gal is gonna.....

Movies

Hey guys.....Diary of a mad black woman...this is a must see movie. The actors, story line, cinematography list is endless its good. After seeing that one go and see the family reunion. Please don't say i didn't tell you go and see it....Woza Tuesday half price

Blogging.....

Blogging is fun...but i know my blog has been dead for a very long time...i have been thinking about interesting things to talk about on my blog....dear diary. Oh yha i think i must get a commission from whoever cause I have recruited so many people to start using blog as a platform. So now you know why i was not posting anything, its because I was busy recruiting....somebody needs to do some admin you know so i volunteered myself...But am back ke by popular demand

Cape Town

Cape Town----------huh!!!!!!!!!! what can i say about that place. I am happy atleast now I am saying that place not this place anymore. Yha for sure u a think why am saying that place-----what do u think? --------yha u guessed right I have permanently moved from that place. If i ever go there i will be going for a holiday visit or maybe after getting my retirement package. Yep retirement.....its a nicee place yona Kapa ya teng mara not for me.

Manje am in Pitoli.......its hot here shoo how do these people survive on this hoe weather!!!!!

Anyway so far so good.

Namhlanje/Today

Shooooo, Today in Cape Town its freezing cold and to top it all its raining. I don't like a weather like this cause ....

Month end

Whats this......month end? yeah month end----------when i was still a student I use to enjoy pay day cause my parents would send me money and stuff but now ----whuuuuuuuuuu hectic neh.

That's pay days for you they are hectic.

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JHB vs CPT

Have you noticed how a lot of events and activities take place in Jozi during these holidays. All main events take place that side, "Y" is that. June 16 celebrations, big kwaito concerts, May day, soccer matches, The question is Why Johannesburg, why there not here in Cape Town.

Cape Town is also supposed to be the big city oh to rephrase that "Mother City". If by chance these activities do not take place in Johanesburg it will be Durban, why not Cape Town.

Long weekend

When someone mentions long weekend, it always sounds like we all gonna have some good time or exciting time but no that's not the case it only means the weekend will be longer and there is a chance that it might be boring....hahaha haha

This long weekend for me was not so nice I must admit. The reason being there was just too much soccer than i can handle, my partner unfortunately likes Soccer, don't have lots of girlfriends around where i live so it was very boring. Lots of sleep

Crush

Crush..................Ooouch

Police as a career

Yesterday I was watching special assignment on SABC TV. They were talking about our South African police men. I knew before yesterday that their job was a difficult job but didn't realise the extent of stress and pressure they work under. And their working conditions are not helping much to assist the situation either.

When i was watching the show immediately in my mind I had a picture of one of my cousins who has been recently taken in to train to be a policemen and the excitment he has about this job. Then reality stricked, immediately I knew that my cousin was slowly but surely also going to make south african statistics about being stressed, hope not though maybe the government might decide to improve working conditions.

The things they get to see everyday are really horrific. dead people in a car accident, people with injuries, seroius injuries, people burnt in a taxi, person shot, stabbed............the list is endless and evrytime these things happen police are the first people that we call.

I mean I know from a personal experience when I see an accident scene I look away cause I don't want to have all the bad memories later on, Aren't they human as well? don't they have the same feeling..........does anyone think what will that person be like after 3 months seeing all this?

They are our fathers, brothers, sisters and mothers. They get killed everyday by the same community they are trying to protect. Why does it have to be like this?

I mean why?

Ideas

I have been struggling with ideas ever since my last writing on this blog. Am not sure what to write about. My peeps say this blog is very deppressing so I should try and write about interesting things not so serious and touchy issues. So I have been thinking about these interesting things nothings seems to come to my mind. Maybe my writing is reflecting my life right now, not sure....by why would i be depressed............will think about this.

Ideas are welcomed please. One suggested that I should write about NEMISA an institution i once attended, hayi i don't think they are worth my time....some things are better left not said. I should have rather done something else with my 3 yrs other than going there. Anyway I wouldn't have known if i was not there i guess i had to go there to experience it.

Night virgil {Umlindo}

I Attended one of those some time last week. During umlindo I am not sure what people are supposed to talk about because I have attended a few and people turn to talk about different things also depending on the religion or church that is leading umlindo.

Some people believe this is where people are supposed to talk about the person that will be buried the next day, but some some disagree saying this is where the word of God needs to be preached to the people so that they get to see eternal life.

I know people differ on this one and if you want to know my thoughts on this one, stick around I will let you know.

In the last 2 milindo's that I attended at home i must say i have been entertained more than anything. I am starting to enjoy attending imilindo also it depends the church that leads imilindo. In the first one it was led by Faith mission "abasindisiwe". Part of my family attend that church and some attend "abafundi bakakrestu". If you know these churches immediately u will know why I was entertained more than crying.

Both these groups are very vocal about their beliefs and who ever you are and whatever you say they do not give you a chance instead they are the right ones according to these groups we are all wrong as they call people who do not go to the same church as them "abamnyama". In this case it was a case of 2 very judgemental groups judging each other and explaing why theirs is the right one. But what was more funny was that all the other churches like Roma, tshetshi, wisile, zion are the victims of these people this time they were watching the best match fighting with a bible the interesting match. Both groups quoting the same bible to justify their actions although one is saying the others are wrong and vise versa.

I really did enjoy this. Not sure how to explain this but... one day I will have enough time and write about it.

Incase you want to know I also subscribe to one of the groups, will let you know some other day which one.

Programme....I mean the one in the morning of the funeral. I really do not like attending that because this is where you are reminded about the person you have lost, this is where all memories come back, this is where most people cry. I am not sure this is necessary.

Will finish this some other time, but will appreciate your thoughts

Serious quote

A colleague of mine sent me this quote:
"Life should NOT be a journey to the grave with the intention of arriving safely in an attractive and well preserved body, but rather to skid in sideways, champagne in one hand, smoke in the other, body thoroughly used up, totally worn out and screaming "WOO HOO - What a ride!"

What do you think

Thursday EC

On thursday am going to Eastern Cape, I wonder how is life there maybe not life because nothing changes there in the deep rural villages of Eastern Cape. So no need to wonder what life is like..Poverty is the main thing. Maybe I should rephrase my question and say I wonder how is the weather there. Will find out soon but I guess it will be very cold and dry as usual during this time of the year. But am looking forward to see the other people of my family. The long journey between Cape Town and Eastern Cape it really bores me, its too long and boring.

Lighter than previous

....not so serious

2day Cape Town is a bit chilly..I am dressed in all my winter clothes I am in browns if you know what I mean. Sounds like its gotta be a a very cold weekend.

...Ciaw....

2005/2006 not a good year for me so far....

Not sure where to start, but there has been a series of events happening in my life or around me. First In March 05 I lost my close Aunt, Dec 05 when I was going home with my family we had a car accident and our car was written off, February 05 my father had a car accident on his way to Queenstown, April my younger sister (6yrs) was hit by a car and died on the spot. Now in May I have lost my other Aunt...

But hey I will hold my head high above my shoulders and be fine, hope this is the just a phase that is gonna pass.

Oh!!! not again

As I have mentioned it before in my previous posts. I hate talking about this now and again as if I want people to feel pity for me, please that is not the case but it shows how serious it affects me me this disease.

Today at 10.00 got a call from Dad in the Eastern Cape telling me that my Aunt has passed away. Ok maybe you might say I knew that she was ill and very ill to be specific when I left her she was already in the last stages but couldn't stay to look after her, Yes I knew and indeed I was expecting this might happen anytime as I saw the situation when I left EC but hey not so soon. To me it all happened so soon I was hoping atleast after taking the treatment she will be better or the worst that she could live until December.

I am saying I knew and I was expecting this because that is what I wanted to believe but unfortunately when it finally happened I realised I was not yet ready for it, its just what I was telling myself with the hope to believe it.

Can you imagine the pain of a parent having to nurse or to take care of her sick daughters in their last days, watch sickness taking them away from her day by day, hear them crying because of a pain they are feeling while you can't help them. Imagine parent burying her daughters instead of them burrying her. Why does it have to be her? why both of them? why the same cause of death? why within such a short space of time - one last year March now this Aunt this year, Why?

I was not very close to my Aunt that passed away because she was a bit older than me, I was close because we use to live in the same house but she was an adult and I was a child unlike my Aunt that passed away last year that was like my sister. Nonetheless we lived in the same house saw everyday that makes her close enough to me that is why when she passed away it felt like a part of me was taken away.

This Aunt or my Aunt was the last one still alive (36yrs), she is leaving a child 6 months old and other 2 older sons now my grandmother will need to be a mother to these children. How long will she be alive herself because she is an old woman in her early 80's to take care of these kids. Will she be able to take care of these kids because she is very old. Sooner or later they will be orphans form part of the SA Stastistics of children left by parents at a young age because of age.

Anyway we all going to die one day that I know and they were also going to die even if it was not HIV related, but still the thought of of them being killed by HIV related deseases makes me more scared and helpless.

I know this is not just my story, its a story of hundred of other South Africans out there.

Brothers and sisters we are together in this struggle...

Smoking on the trains

Trains are supposed to be no smoking zones atleast that is what signs on the trains are telling us and also announcements that Metrorail keep making on their radio stations. Almost everybody if not everybody by now is aware that no smoking is not allowed on the trains, but believe me there are still people that smoke in the trains even today, what do you call this? stubborn, stupid, ignorant, I wish I had enough edjectives to explain what I think of these people, unfortunately my english 3rd language taught me of few of these.

Anywho I was still complaning about these people, you know its not like we don't smoke because we don't have cash to buy cigarrettes, we don't smoke because we do not like the smell and for other reasons so I don't understand why should people keep on smoking in public places. Trains are a public place it is a public transport for goodness sake so paleez stop smoking.

Metrorail service leaves a lot to be desired

I am one of Metrorail's customers, maybe that is not the right word because if I was a customer I wouldn't be treated like this, Rephrase that I am one of the people that always use Metrorail to and from work every day. I am very dissappointed at their so called new improved train timetables for Cape Town. According to what I heard {protecting my sources} this new timetable is supposed to come with improvements, more trains added, and transport as a whole being more convinient especially during peak hours. I will not try and talk on behalf of Western Cape people, or even Cape Town people but I will only comment about what I know and have experienced in my route to work from Bellville to Cape Town. For starters in the so called improved new timetable they have stopped the "Express" trains, some might not be familiar with this terminology yase trainini (if you are one of those - express trains are those that do not stop in all stations but stop in main stations only, some call it special). Anywho, I was still mourning about ii-trains. All trains that pass Parow station which is where I catch my train are all stations, and I've been told this happens all the time during winter so there must be a good reason that someone has to do such a thing, but I would also love to know what the reason is. As far as I can see it does not look like there are any added trains in that line especially in the morning. In the mornings we are all crambed into these courages [amakhareji] full, with lots of people standing in the passages, and these trains will stop in all the stations although there is no space for people to come in, if you have not been to a train hear it from me it is very uncomfortable to stand in the passage kulamakhareji ka-first class. Can Metrorail try something else a more working timetable please. Some people have cars but because they are responsible citizens they prefer to use public transport so that they do not contribute to the heavy traffic and air pollution which is caused by carbon emission from the cars.

While still on it, I really hate those blue and yellow trains that are used in the Simon's town route they are really not comfortable. They look very nice from outside but the minute you are inside they are bad. Hope they are not making more of these.

AIDS A reality

I am a bit down while writing this, but I will continue to write anyway because I want to express my feelings about this maybe I will feel better afterwards. Aids is a reality and people are dying left and right, in urban areas, townships, villages there is just no place to hide from this desease(sp). Sometimes when people talk about it at a disatance on radio, tv etc its not as serious as when you see people dying because of it in front of your eyes feeling helpless especially your own family members and close friends. Most people don't understand this until it hits their own families maybe what is painful is not that they have this uncurable diseases but the way it kills them is what really is painfull for me.

I have lost a close family member from this disease, she was really close to me we went to school together until tertiary that is how how close we were, she started being sick few years ago but became serious 2 years back, started loosing weight, became very sick, sometimes looked like she has lost her mind, couldn't move until to a stage where she couldn't talk move or even eat and you could only see bones and she passed away last year in March. This disease is very cruel... Not because it took her away from me but because of how it took her away from me.

Now I have 2 more family members 1 is also very close to me he is also dying because of this, He is now at a stage where the pain is written in his face, when you look at him your eyes become full of tears but you also want to be strong for him so that he can be strong.

I am not sure how am i supposed to handle this, society expects me to continue working like every thing is normal, wake up in the morning go to work and come back but inside my heart is in pieces because of this. This is becoming too much for me as an individual. On one hand I can't just leave my job and go and look after my dying family and friends because I have responsibilities and financila commitments.

Securities on strike

I must say thanks God there are blogs where we can express our feelings or practise our freedom of speech, oh did I say speech maybe freedom of writing (he,he,heeee..ee). Security guards are our fathers, mothers, brothers and sisters even friends, but I must say I don't like how they handle themselves during their strikes. Everytime the security guards go on strike something always go wrong, either someone is killed or someone gets injured or assulted by these people or even worse they steal in shops. What's all this. To my little understanding about Unions and members, unions are supposed to take control of their members so that they do not go around vandalisisng people's properties or assulting fellow securities on duty.

If Unions can't control their members I guess there is no reason for them to go on strike because we do not want a situation where if the guards are on strike it means we can't go to town because we might be assaulted. Next time if securities get out of control or even members of any union get out of control during a planned march or boycott the union must be fined so that the members can pay.

This is really not a good Public Relations for our country.

A friend of mine

I have a strange friend of mine and her name is ...., she is very strange in many ways but what happened y'sterday made me think u know what this gal is really strange. She was invloved in an accident and indeed she informed us and we supported her in many ways, although she is a bit far locationwise from most of her friends. When I thought Ok this was over y'sterday she sent us an email that she was going to be operated because she had head injuries, mind you she sent this email in the sfternoon, and the surgery was supposed to take place in that same afternoon, now my next question was when was she made aware of this? why did she keep it to herself? because its very serious and for sure she needed support, still all my questions do not have answers. Called some few friends of ours yesterday hoping they knew something about this but to my surprise none of them knew this.

I really don't understand this gal..... but I love her none the less, first she doesn't tell us her birthday because apparently it means nothing to her....quiet wierd neh......thought so too

My name is Toto married with 2 sons. I grew up in Matatiele in a small village called Luxeni. I matriculated in a Roman catholic high school called Mariazell. I went to M L Sultan Technikon to do a diploma in Public Relations. After working for Unitra Community Radio for a year I decided to go and further my studies that is when I got a sponsorship from the Department of Communication to go and study at National Electronic Media Institute of Southern Africa and register for Information design. I am currently working in PTA