Who am I

Somebody tell me?

2007-07-18T05:49:00.001-07:00

Am i getting old or what? Everyone that i meet and chat to is either 24 or 26....not even 1 is close to my age. Even my colleagues they range around that age. Does this mean i should be somewhere else where all people of my age are? What happened to me, where was I when everybody was doing whatever they did.....all of a sudden i see myself surrounded by 24 and 26 yr olds..............................................................................................................................................................................Aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh I wanna scream.

I am soo used to being the youngest in my group, class, home....now being the big sis is something else maan....

m....mmm

2007-07-18T04:08:00.000-07:00

A colleague of mine sent me this statement

"Women may be able to fake orgasms, but men can fake whole relationships".

What a statement!!!!

Staying alone

2007-07-18T03:47:00.000-07:00

I have heard this conversation with most of my friends and i keep getting the same answer. Why do people stay alone either in a flat or town house....For sure some people are thinking what is the question here? Because if you are not married you should staying alone. The real question is staying alone as nice as people make us to believe?

I have posed this question to other people before, and the answer i got was that, it is good sometimes because you get your space...you know sometimes you just wanna be alone, i suppose we all have those moments. But then what if you want company?. This other friend of mine was saying when you are staying alone you phone bill is likely to be high, because everytime you wanna share something you have to call someone, if you are watching TV, listening to Radio, paging a magazine..if you wanna share what you have just read, seen, heard you have to call. The last time to speak to someone is at 4.30 at work when you say Bye to colleagues, when you get to the house, its quiet and lonely.

It becomes worse if you don't have a BF or GF because in a weekend it is possible that none of your friends thinks of calling you, maybe because they are busy....so this means if no-one calls you in that weekend you will be quiet from Friday afternoon until Monday morning. Shuuuu

Is this true guys? i wanna hear your views

Halala HHP!!!!

2007-07-13T00:18:00.000-07:00

Wow!!! I must confess when i heard that HHP was one of the people that were going to participate in this season's Strictly come dancing, i thought to myself "say what". You know moss dancing is one of those sports that when you think about them, you think beauty, glamour, slim, muscles...so i didn't see some of those with HHP. Until their first dance...he proved me wrong.

The guy is good or should i say the guy always make sure that he gives 100% in everything that he does!!! Remember when Azania was on maternity leave and celebrities were called to host the breakfast show....HHP was the best, well according to me. HHP and Tumisho were my best presenters. And now he proved the stereo types about dancing wrong as well and he took a trophy....oh my God!!!! and he is a good musucian as well

Halala HHP...you have done us, me proud brother

Adverts

2007-06-14T22:31:00.000-07:00

Don't you guys just love the DBSA advert, the drawing one!!! Wow...for me that advert has got so many messages in one. Firstly it makes me appreciate art, the drawing looks so perfect and good, and i always try and find look closely on how do they they change those drawings from one perfect to another perfect drawing....I did drawing as a subject/course but I was so terrible my Gosh. Maybe that is why I am appreciating even the DBSA advert even more.

Another cool advert is "Da..nc..ing like a white guy"...i laugh all the time they play it. I think the agency that is doing Vodacom adverts is really doing a good job.

Essential services

2007-06-04T05:24:00.000-07:00

For sure we have all heard this phrase....essential services especially now that the government employees are on strike or stay away if you choose to call it that. Government is saying people who work in essential services should not participate in strike....>>>reason being that if nurses go on strike most people will suffer and we mught even loose more people in hospitals (ICU...)but now why is government only aware now that these people are in essential services??? are they not supposed to prevent these things from happening other than being reactional.....

What is the incentive do these people get for working in essential services. Because as far as i know they are also underpaid just as the rest of the public service people. Government has got a way of forcing health workers to work even when they are not certisfied with the conditions...and all the time they treaten them?? why is this? Is it because of the Oath they signed when they grauted from nursing colleges??? I don't think these people are treated fairly. Remember what happened in KwaZulu Natal at the beginning of this year or end of last year, when most nurses participated on strike, then they were served with letters expelling them...and later on they were re-instated. What drama was this all about??? Trying to teach thema a lesson or what???

I think Government should try and meet health professionals half way to avoid them taking part in the strike action. If essential services is sooo important, remuneration should reflect that and nurses will not even think about striking...and we will have peace and no need to SADF ti be nurses in our hospitals

Cyberspace

2007-05-17T05:09:00.000-07:00

There is soo much going on in the cyberspace....there was first MSN Messenger, skype, yahoo chat lately blogging, facebook and now hi5.com...How do you decide which platform to use? if you choose one are you not missing out on the excitement that the others are likely to offer? If you choose to be in all the spaces....when do you get time....time to be everywhere...facebook, blog, hi5...its hectic guys.

Rugby: a sport for those who can afford

2007-05-14T05:54:00.000-07:00

The past weekend has been a very exciting weekend with both semi finals playing in South Africa....now the South African teams will be playing final. Great news for the country and for our national team.

How does one get to enjoy Rugby if they cannot afford? they play their matches on Supersport which happened to be a pay channel, their tickets are not so cheap...then if you are an ordinary South African who is doing an ordinary job does this mean you can not support Rugby? I think the amount of money you earn automatically disqualifies you from favouring certain sports with Rugby included

Sad---Doobsie

2007-05-11T04:43:00.000-07:00

I felt very bad yesterday when i woke up to the sad news that Lindiwe Chibi has passed away. Why? why? you know what makes me more sad is that after she suffered like this, for such a long time, the mother watched the daughter suffering helplessly, everyday, every hour and every minute. After all the suffering she dies. Why did she have to go through all that pain if she was going to die anyway? I am not sure who to blame...but i want to blame someone...

Why did that guy shoot Lindiwe? unfortunately the country will never know, although its not really our business but i think family deserves to know.

There is too much bad news in this country, Look what happened to Rasoege(sorry for wrong spelling) Nkuna's girlfriend...This is one story that is confusing me because I am not sure what to believe anymore. Police believe that Nkuna killed the policewoman, but Nkuna is denying this...Police saw Rasoege's blood in Nkuna's car but Nkuna did not deny that it is her blood but all he says is that it is because they had sex in the car...so the blood is from the SEX....just one statement (is the amount of blood not suppose to give a hint here?. I might be wrong but i think Nkuna killed Rasoege...he must just tell the country where is the body.

Can somebody tell us where is Rasoege's body....its too much!!!.

Feedback from Interview

2007-05-07T04:18:00.000-07:00

Yha, it went very well shame yhazi. She aasked the basic questions...like why i do it?, who introduced me to it? how often do i post articles?, what sort of topics do i talk about?, what topics interest me from other people's blogs? Is there a possibility of this growing and stuff like that?, Can commercial business use this medium? how else can a person use this platform other than saying their views.....yha whole of those sort of questions....nothing hectic

But it was good..Not qure though if I am looking forward to the shooting....

School....wuuuuhaaa

2007-05-07T04:12:00.000-07:00

School can be a bit traumitising...or maybe traumatising is not the right word can be frustrating. But sometimes it can be real fun. I have been very frustrated by school over the past 2 months or so...assignment due dates, tests...group discussions ...all these thing need time, preparations ...a lot of preparations....lots of reading. I am not sure I am fan of reading text books...but funny enough i always put myself in these situations. This is the 3rd time registering after my first diploma(different qualifications and all). But for some reason i do manage to finish them. Why do I keep putting myself in this uncomfortable situation i don't know. Somebody outhere please let me know asseblief.

There were times this year when i though of deregistering this one course which is really frustrating me.......

But then there are moments of feeling great about being at school, like that feeling when you get your assignment back and you have just passed unbelivable well...while you were expecting a 20% you just get 80%!!!! isn't that a great feeling mara? that feeling that makes you wanna continue with school

Whuuuu. full stop

David Bullard

2007-05-07T04:00:00.000-07:00

Hey guys have you seen David Bullard's column this sunday? Please fellow bloggers get yourelves some copies to read.....not sure if i should comment or respond to him.

He says we are the columnists wanna be's...i think he is freaking scared of the growing blog zone....are we threatning the man or what? C'mmon David you write a column to get paid and we write because we like, there is no material motivation...we just say it like it is....Are you afraid that you might loose your job sooner than you thought??

I think it is sinking in your head that the writing of columns in the near future might not be treated as a career but as something that one does during their spare time.....extramural activity i think they call it that.

I think i should put a full stop here.

Blogging

2007-05-03T00:10:00.000-07:00

Guys

Give me some ideas...i have an appointment with someone from O magazine, they wannna interview me on blogging..they want to know why i do it....what sort of info do i disclose that kind of info.....never had an interview with a magazine.....nervous...nervous....how did they get my name????

Long weekend

2007-04-26T04:58:00.000-07:00

Eish I am sooo looking forward to this long weekend...especially that its even longer than the easter weekend. Eish unfortunately I will be so broke....(do we write broke like this?)I am only getting paid at the last day of the month.....ukusebenzela amaNdiya ke....Anywho i hope to enjoy it to the fullest....cause there are activities all over the show...there is a Diva's concert that I will not be attending how i wish i could attend this concert mara....to be a parent sometimes!!! Yah heartwarmer take your time sister to have kids. There is another one at the Pretoria show grounds...on Friday at the Union building there is Freedom day celebrations...uuuulaaa and a 5km run..I am running that with my kids....hahahah then some artists will perform and the Gauteng Premier will give a speech....then go home...Sat go to class...eish i hate that class...the lecturer can't really not sure yet what I will be doing....but I will be preparing for my long run on the 1st of May..yes there is 42km's run at Centurion.....kubusy people are preparing for Comrades......

Cricket

2007-04-26T04:36:00.000-07:00

What happened yesterday? 27 already 5 wickets down in just 10 overs!!! what is this? Professional cricket by professional players who get paid lots to perform better on behlaf of the country. Why mara? what happened to out team. Have you noticed how our team looses if Graeme Smith gets out early..but if he stays for a long time like maybe get about 50 runs or more our team wins. Jacque(sp)Kallis i usually trust this boy with the bet...what happened? out for 5 runs? i don't believe this. You know yesterday I was looking forward to a great cricket game...but even before 5 when i was still at work just checking the score on the internet i was so dissappointed when i saw 27 for 5 in 10 overs...haybo

I must admit though i don't understand the technicalities of cricket...all what I check is the score so maybe there other factors i should consider when i watch the game which will help my smallanyana understanding of the game understand why we lost like that yesterday. We couldn't even finish the overs....50 overs is that a lot.

With that kind of score i knew it was going to be difficult to defend actually there was nothing to be defended there. So i suppose for Australia it was a walk in the park.

I know it was just a match....and i agree when a match is played both participants have a fair chance of winning especially if both sides have a point to prove like Australia and South Africa. South Africa can loose any day against any other country but not Australia....i hate it when we loose to Australia

I wish Malinga all the best in taking out all those Australians.....

Why Graenme...why, why ...why...we can loose but not this bad....that was poor perfomance.....Graeme!!!!! I wanna scream.

Being inlove

2007-04-23T07:18:00.000-07:00

Have you ever noticed how good is the feeling of being in love. The smiles...goose bumps...small thoughts..giggling

Its such a beautiful thing. I love being inlove. Is it a sustainable feeling though? or is it a stage that passes with excitement?

My personal feeling is that this kind of feeling is not sustainable at all. We would all like to always feel like that but it doesn't happen. It is just a feeling of excitement which lasts for about a month or two if you are lucky cause with other people it lasts for less than that. But there is another feeling which replaces it...the feeling of knowing you are loved by someone you love....is not this amazing mara...

That can last forever...that feeling of knowing someone cares about you. I like the feeling of loving someone...when you look into their eyes...you just want to melt, when you kiss them you want to cry....when he/she hugs you you feel the heart beating fast...you don't wanna let them go. Its such a beautiful feeling mara to love someone.

I am loving my man at the moment....I am loving him...I am loving him.....

Generations mara

2007-04-23T07:06:00.000-07:00

There are a lot of soapies that are currently playing on our small screens at the moment. Isidingo, Scandal, soon to be canned Backstage, generations and many more. Mara generations is the worst of them all. who writes for this soapie? Ok i know soapies are not necessarily depicting our real life buy haybo...generations is worse. Look at what they are doing to Busi (Sbusiso's sister). Can a person in that level MD be so stupid? really now? What is Jack doing in Generations? does the man have a role? no wonder he is quitting...he is too good to keep on loitering around there doing nothing....we miss his good acting skills in theatre. I know generations probably for some actors provide them a stable job which makes sense if you have responsibilities. I also don't like the idea they always portray that rich black dudes are cruckes or they got their money through back doors....or is that so? look at Mashaba...in real life can a person still another person's company...

I like most actors though, they are doing their best, but eish script writes should be more creative. Can't they take notes from the Isidingo guys.....

C'mmon generations, you can do better than that. I mean 20h00 we want to wacth good TV cause that is the time where we are watching TV with kids...something educational, or to laugh about, something that we can all talk about as a family.

2007-04-20T01:59:00.000-07:00

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TV on Saturday

2007-04-16T07:52:00.000-07:00

This Saturday TV was hectic there were SAMA's, cricket (South Africa Vs New Zealand), Soccer as well, it was just too hectic people in the house wanting to watch different things....during break trying other channels...channel hopping was the order of the evening. But TV is good like that.

I must say i enjoyed the SAMA's especially the presenter Kabelo...he did very well (U guys wanna see my number!!). I might not agree with some people that won but that is a different issue altogether for some day. enjoyed seeing those dresses and some perfomances by some local guys. Now Sbu aka Mzekezeke i really didn't understand that whole act of him perfoming remember when it rains, did he actually perform that song because i heard the other white dude singing and then a CD with Sbu smiling and dancing some moves that were not coordinated....so my question is Why did Sbu go in the front? he could have just stayed with the audience and whoever introduced the song acknowledge him....you know that easy.... I really didn't understand the logic behind.

Sister Bettina guys...C'mmon now when are you gonna learn to know your lyrics by heart so you can stop saying wrong words in wrong places....it disturbs the whole perfomance yhazi. Its either you let the CD play and keep quiet mime....until the end or atleast learn your lyrics....its just too messy at the moment. Guyz get your act together, and unfortunately for me i was not hearing them bebheda for the first time.

Shwi noMntekhala...abafana baseHostela....don't believe this, they took the award for the best selling album two times in a row.....the brothers are good shame. Big ups to the guys. By the way did you watch them perfoming in Rebecca's show on Sunday...they have a gospel song.....also maskanda and nice.

Rebecca??? do i need to say anything here.....all i can say is that It is boring maan. maybe i am jealous but it is very boring shame, don't we have other gospel stars that can compete with this lady...cause that is the message I am getting from the SAMA's.

What happened to Mandoza?

Anyway...cricket. Saturday game was very intereting maybe interesting is not the right word it was rather.... (gone to check my dictionary for a word to use). Only if South African had made more runs even if it was mere 200, we could be talking a different language altogether. It was a difficult slow pitch i agree, but Pieterson tried shame.....and i think there was just too much pressure on him to deliver because the pitch needed people who swing the ball rather than fast bowlers so he was the only guy although i think Smith also swings he decided not to bowl that day cause there was just too much pressure for bowlers to take wickets......

But i know South Africa will win tomorrow....Good luck boyz.

Soccer...Isiwelele. I am really not a soccer fan, maybe there is a reason why i don't like soccer it is because i don't understand it ...offside, penalty, handball, etc. Husby has been trying to explain to me the concept of off side for the past few years...i just don't get it sometimes...i get lost all the time. But i have a team that i favour....Bloemfontein Celtics. I started being a serious supporter 2005 when i was in Cape Town....I am worried these days they seem to be unlucky with goals cause they still play very well shame. Viva to the Celtics fan from Bloemfontein. They support their club even when its loosing... Viva to those supporters. There is a play at the State theatre about the celtics supporters, maybe i should go and watch it

House hunting

2007-04-16T07:41:00.000-07:00

Is it me or this exercise is one of those that really take long, when you want to buy a house does it take this long to get a house that you really want in the area that you like not forgetting "affordability" can i afford the house of my dreams, can i afford a shelter for my kids, can i afford a shelter over my head or will i rent for life. I am very tired of renting cause at the moment that is the only thing I can afford to do in a posh place if i want to buy then it means i must go to place that i don't even like not because its my choice but because the bank says so.

Am i being a spoilt brat here or what? I am not really looking for something fancy....I am just looking for a shelter for my family....is that too much to ask? But houses that I have been seeing its either the area is not up to scratch or the area is posh but the house itself is sooo small with small bedrooms......will i buy mara??????

Matatiele {Luxeni}

2007-04-16T07:09:00.000-07:00

They call it Luxenburg!!!! these days. That is the smallanyana village where I come from situated koMatatiele (not sure whether its KZN or Eastern Cape) but its there somewhere. I went home during the easter weekend to see my mother, father, grand mother, grand father from my father's side....and a whole lot of people from my family and the village. My family is one of those big extended families with lots of people. My father and mum don't stay there cause of work reasons like me, so when he is there all the relatives come and we all sit together at my father's house as a family, so the same thing happened this time again.

The village is still dry as ever, the road to the house oh my God its still bad...terrible thing happened our car was fetched by a breakdown......that is how bad the road is...full of big stones on the way, but something positive has happened, they have running water although its 1 tap shared by about 10 families. This is still better than before when we use to emlanjeni to go fetch water. And yha hee there is electricity, In my village there is electricity..i don't believe this yhazi phela i never imagined my village with electricity cause its one of those deep rural villages surrounded by mountains.

But it was good shame to see my folks, brothers, sisters, cousins, grand parents and everyone that i use to know when I was growing koLuxeni. To be continued

Yfm rules the airwaves

2007-04-02T01:36:00.000-07:00

Indeed Yfm rules the breakfast show rush....not that Paul rules the airwaves rather the products of Y rule the airwaves. Thomas aka Bad Boy T, Rude Boy Paul, Sbu aka Mzekezeke are all doing breakfast shows of different radio stations. Stakes are high, they are all competing for the listeners of the breakfast show.

I must admit when i heard the news for the first time i knew that competition will be tough between the 3 guys who at one stage use to work for one station, but what i heard this morning yha.....neh.....boring times for radio are over....i kept on changing from one channel to another just in a space of about 20min....isn;t that what makes radio....keeping your competition on their toes. Looking forward to what the presenter will say next or to the next song they will be playing and their comments....this is exciting!!!!!!

Bob is history and Y is future. During the pat few years Bob was the radio that was known for producing well known top DJ's and presenters (if there is a difference between the 2)...The Tim Modise's of this world, the Bob Mabena's and others, all those are products of Bob. I must say i like the gal or guy...(not sure if s/he is boy or gal) that co-hosts with Thomas.....s/he is a bit interesting or the comments s/he makes are ..........I like Thomas on radio i've been listening to him when he was doing the midday show...the boy has talent.....

Yha....Sbu i was really looking forward to hearing him speaking Zulu.....just as long as he makes sure that he speaks that Zulu fluently with a zulu accent I am cool, cause ubaba uZwelithini akadlali (he takes no-nonsense as far as the language is concerned). After hearing him this morning, hayi shame he is not bad at all...better than what i thought but i think few more classes will help so he stays in good books of uBab'u Zwelithini....
Watch out Sbu....that gal you co-host with.........she might just take the spotlight...she is good.

You are right heartwarmer 5fm should give the breakfast show to Fresh.....(Heartwarmer when you see this, please provide me with a link to your post that talks about this...i think i saw it on Friday but when i browsed through this morning....in a hurry i couldn't find it......i want to acknowledge you dear)

Sorry Heartwarmer i got the link-----http://bio-scoop.blogspot.com/2007/03/rude-boy-bounced-pabi.html

Eish this google account blogger

2007-03-28T05:24:00.000-07:00

For the past month or two I have been struggling to log in..because apparently my blog has been moved to the GOOGLE whatever.....its boring. Ok i must confess I remember moving the blog cause I have benn getting an irritating message saying i need to move my blog then I said yes....

Since then i thnk i never blogged until last month when i tried and it kept telling me that I have a wrong password......shooo thanks God i managed at the end

Technology!!!!!!!!

Catch fire

2007-02-16T03:53:00.000-08:00

For those who do not know...this is a name of a movie that is currently showing on the big screen. My main interest or the main reason I went to see this movie was because this is a true story and they have used some South African actors. True stories and documentaries always interest me cause I can relate to them, life of ordinary people like my self (sabaltans)

I know people think this is a tired story because these stories have been told, people fighting for democracy..we've seen that, we've seen how people struggled and how people died and how they were spying on each other during the apartheid years etc...

These same stories have been told in different ways and from different angles hence people are tired of hearing them cause all angles have been told and we assume the angles are exhausted so what now? Indeed this is a valid question, it makes sense cause that is the same question I had in my mind when there was a drama playing at SABC 1 called "when we were black". I really did not like it. When i saw it the first thing that came to my mind was excuse me this story is soo tired shame, we have heard enough of this, they had bits of comedy and drama which is a different angle all together of telling a story. I guess that drama was telling the same story as the one that is told by the movie "catch fire" but they are telling the story from different angles.

First of all the two are different because the movie is a true story and it should be depicted as such with no dramatisation of real events. For me the story was very touchy, there were times when i felt like crying it was real emotional. Most of these stories have been told through lives of people that we all know..the Mandela's Sisulu's, Hani's, Mokhaba's and other high profile business people (BEE) yes i agree those are tired, but a life of an ordinary person that we don't even know? that is the part that touched me most, seeing a life of an ordinary man who fought for democracy and the man was not a leader and after we got our democracy he is still not a leader and we don't hear anyone shouting his name.

The only thing i didn't like about the movie though was taking an american guy with an american accent to act the life of (forgot his name sorry) why is that? Is it because our actors cannot act on big screen or what? Are we lacking talent or what? somebody please enlighten me cause i really want to know and i don't understand. I am dissappointed by the producers of the movie...I am sure someone from somewhere in SA could have done a better job and speak a better Xhosa than that guy. Haybo wahy make that guy speak Xhosa mara...was it really necessary?

Yha thanks to a friend of mine who gave me something to blog about, We have different views as far as this movie is concerned. Maybe it is because we were born at different times and experienced life differently at different places and interacted with different people on different levels. Yha eish its good to look at all sides of the story.

Go see the movie and let me know your thoughts!!!!am waiting

http://myataza.blogspot.com/2007/03/catch-fire.html

2007-01-19T05:20:00.000-08:00

This is such an exciting hobby....yha hobby i said it. I started running 2 years ago because of reasons most gals run for to loose weight. Apparently it works and it is a healthy way to loose that extra ....or those extra kilo's. But i have never done it seriously, normally i would run when its close to summer.....(Oct, Nov) stop in Dec cause its just too busy then would not continue until its Winter again then summer start. So all in all in a year i would run for 2 months.

Ok back to the point at hand now, sorry i forgot what i wanted to say. But i just know i was going to talk about how good running is but the points thsweeee. Let me think......................................................................................................... .............................. ............................................... ....................................... ......................................... ...................

Honesty----do guys as in males know the meaning of this word

2007-01-19T01:32:00.000-08:00

Really now, do they know the meaning of the word Honesty in a relationship...I've got friends of mine that have been hurt some once and some more than once. Sometimes hurt by the same people who claim to love them over and over again. Kanti what is love..maybe we define this differently as individuals. Does hurting the person you claim to luv qualifies to be called love or are these people doing it in the name of love. Is luv the new hate these days or what? I think it people must be honest with each other in a relationship. For instance if you are married say so...tell her and if you are planning to marry someone else while you are involved with her atleast have a decency of letting her know your intentions. If you have a child from your past relationship tell her cause there is a possibility that you might want to go back to your mother of the child.

Its that easy

Some pics from Xmas party tsa ko mberekong

2006-12-21T02:02:00.000-08:00

Xmas Parties

2006-12-20T02:31:00.000-08:00

Eish....not sure i should be saying anything about Xmas parties. Anyway i just went to one this friday. It was FUN....what defines fun for me is loud music and lots of meat........number of people really doesn't matter. Will talk more on this issue later on

Cape Town...ag no no my mistake its Pretoria (The smaller version of Cape Town)

2006-12-04T02:25:00.000-08:00

Ok, K....I waited until I was not angry any more before I could write this article. Guys, guys , guys kanti Cape Town and Pretoria do these towns have a problem ye racism or what?? I lived in Cape Town for a couple of years but the racism was just too much maan i couldn't handle it, now am in PTA thought Ok i have moved away from people who don't understand that this is a new South African so we are all equal as "lilizwe lethu sonke" Some guys who are more or less pink really need counselling you know. I thought by now every one understands that we are in a new South Africa.

Believe me there are people who cannot accept change or who cannot handle change very well. C'mmon guys its almost 15yrs now after 1994. How long should we be understanding or accomodating to these people..how many more years? should we understand forever or what? somwbody tell me please because I am really struggling to make sense of some things that happen.

Now my story, what really happened this Saturday? I might be reading this wrongly please guys be honest with me and tell me No Thandi, You are seeing things....u a too obsessed with racism, u see it even when its not there....

Ok, to the story now, we were going to the airport with a friend of mine and her BF (I shall call them Sarah and John). John was driving neh, Don't know street names guys so please forgive me about that too. So we turned in one of the streets to go towards JHB, and after turning we realised that we had made a wrong turn, it was going to take too long to the airport so we decided we want to turn back neh....so it was one of these one ways to JHB grass in between then another one way from JHB to PTA on the other side of the grass. So there John goes he applies brakes and we went out of the road, now were were on the grass trying to get to the other side of the road, so we drove slowly towards the other side so we could join the cars coming from JHB, then we waited for the right time, then indeed we joined the traffic from JHB, the road was clear , there was only one big 4 by4 car which was travelling on the fast lane and thina we were joining the slow lane....indeed we joined. OK this white guy in a big white 4 by 4 hooted and we all thought Ok, he is telling us that we have done something wrong which is fine, that is how people on the road maybe talk to each other as drivers.

The next thing i saw this big car leaving its lane cooming to our lane with the intention of pushing us out of the road, so i thought now what's happening here....road rage...aha...started sweating......John tried to avoid the car but it kept on pushing us outside the road, then John decided to indicate to the other lane so we can be behind this car indeed that happened. Worse happened when i thought we have managed to avoid him, the car,....this big car stopped infront of us when trying to go to the right it also did the same, when we try left it does the same, Ok, we stopped cause we couldn't move now...and other cars wanted to pass mind you because this was in the middle of a road....tried to swerve to the far left then we managed to run atleats away from being hit by the big car, so we came at the robbots.................................!!!

U don't wanna know what happened at the robbots............we all stopped at the robbots and he stepped out of his car and came straight to our car to the driver's door....I havw got no idea what his intentions were, when he came out of his car....but he was very angry already we locked our doors, then he went for John's door and when it couldn't open he smashed the car windscreen with no luck and he tried again with the mirror and the mirror was broken so the robbots opened and we left.

So what is still in my mind is what was that guy going to do to John if the doors were not locked? if he feels we were so wrong why didn't he take our number plate and report us to authorities? why did he make it his business?

I salute John for being so calm during this whole act on Saturday cause i think if it was somebody else they would have lost the cool...finish and klaar.

The Choice - --Book by Mckanzie (excuse my spelling)

2006-11-28T02:26:00.000-08:00

The Choice-----I have just finished reading this book......be aware or be warned that this book is quiet explicit and graphic but its a good read guys. Its a good book to read, please guys go and buy it. Its not for sensitive readers!!!

My week

2006-11-27T06:08:00.000-08:00

My week is promising to be a fruitful one. On Friday am moving to my own place, Sat my kids are coming over wow what more can a gal ask for? Haybo did i tell you that I am an official runner, i run marathons...hahaha maybe not marathons ke i run those things the 5km's and 10km's with this club. I was introduced to the running by a good friend of mine, believe me you I am enjoying it now. Every saturday there is an activity going on.....marathon taking place somewhere....gees gal I am gonna be so fit uyayazi moss. Ok yha I have got my first medal over the weekend on Saturday......nice hey...n..i...c...e. Watch the space this gal is gonna.....

Movies

2006-11-27T06:06:00.000-08:00

Hey guys.....Diary of a mad black woman...this is a must see movie. The actors, story line, cinematography list is endless its good. After seeing that one go and see the family reunion. Please don't say i didn't tell you go and see it....Woza Tuesday half price

Blogging.....

2006-11-27T05:55:00.000-08:00

Blogging is fun...but i know my blog has been dead for a very long time...i have been thinking about interesting things to talk about on my blog....dear diary. Oh yha i think i must get a commission from whoever cause I have recruited so many people to start using blog as a platform. So now you know why i was not posting anything, its because I was busy recruiting....somebody needs to do some admin you know so i volunteered myself...But am back ke by popular demand

Cape Town

2006-10-03T04:54:00.000-07:00

Cape Town----------huh!!!!!!!!!! what can i say about that place. I am happy atleast now I am saying that place not this place anymore. Yha for sure u a think why am saying that place-----what do u think? --------yha u guessed right I have permanently moved from that place. If i ever go there i will be going for a holiday visit or maybe after getting my retirement package. Yep retirement.....its a nicee place yona Kapa ya teng mara not for me.

Manje am in Pitoli.......its hot here shoo how do these people survive on this hoe weather!!!!!

Anyway so far so good.

Namhlanje/Today

2006-07-12T02:58:00.000-07:00

Shooooo, Today in Cape Town its freezing cold and to top it all its raining. I don't like a weather like this cause ....

Month end

2006-06-27T03:32:00.000-07:00

Whats this......month end? yeah month end----------when i was still a student I use to enjoy pay day cause my parents would send me money and stuff but now ----whuuuuuuuuuu hectic neh.

That's pay days for you they are hectic.

heeeeeeeeeeccccccccccccccccccttttttttticccccccccccc

JHB vs CPT

2006-06-19T07:15:00.000-07:00

Have you noticed how a lot of events and activities take place in Jozi during these holidays. All main events take place that side, "Y" is that. June 16 celebrations, big kwaito concerts, May day, soccer matches, The question is Why Johannesburg, why there not here in Cape Town.

Cape Town is also supposed to be the big city oh to rephrase that "Mother City". If by chance these activities do not take place in Johanesburg it will be Durban, why not Cape Town.

Long weekend

2006-06-19T07:09:00.000-07:00

When someone mentions long weekend, it always sounds like we all gonna have some good time or exciting time but no that's not the case it only means the weekend will be longer and there is a chance that it might be boring....hahaha haha

This long weekend for me was not so nice I must admit. The reason being there was just too much soccer than i can handle, my partner unfortunately likes Soccer, don't have lots of girlfriends around where i live so it was very boring. Lots of sleep

Crush

2006-06-19T07:06:00.000-07:00

Crush..................Ooouch

Police as a career

2006-06-07T06:01:00.000-07:00

Yesterday I was watching special assignment on SABC TV. They were talking about our South African police men. I knew before yesterday that their job was a difficult job but didn't realise the extent of stress and pressure they work under. And their working conditions are not helping much to assist the situation either.

When i was watching the show immediately in my mind I had a picture of one of my cousins who has been recently taken in to train to be a policemen and the excitment he has about this job. Then reality stricked, immediately I knew that my cousin was slowly but surely also going to make south african statistics about being stressed, hope not though maybe the government might decide to improve working conditions.

The things they get to see everyday are really horrific. dead people in a car accident, people with injuries, seroius injuries, people burnt in a taxi, person shot, stabbed............the list is endless and evrytime these things happen police are the first people that we call.

I mean I know from a personal experience when I see an accident scene I look away cause I don't want to have all the bad memories later on, Aren't they human as well? don't they have the same feeling..........does anyone think what will that person be like after 3 months seeing all this?

They are our fathers, brothers, sisters and mothers. They get killed everyday by the same community they are trying to protect. Why does it have to be like this?

I mean why?

Ideas

2006-06-02T07:28:00.000-07:00

I have been struggling with ideas ever since my last writing on this blog. Am not sure what to write about. My peeps say this blog is very deppressing so I should try and write about interesting things not so serious and touchy issues. So I have been thinking about these interesting things nothings seems to come to my mind. Maybe my writing is reflecting my life right now, not sure....by why would i be depressed............will think about this.

Ideas are welcomed please. One suggested that I should write about NEMISA an institution i once attended, hayi i don't think they are worth my time....some things are better left not said. I should have rather done something else with my 3 yrs other than going there. Anyway I wouldn't have known if i was not there i guess i had to go there to experience it.

Night virgil {Umlindo}

2006-05-16T03:42:00.000-07:00

I Attended one of those some time last week. During umlindo I am not sure what people are supposed to talk about because I have attended a few and people turn to talk about different things also depending on the religion or church that is leading umlindo.

Some people believe this is where people are supposed to talk about the person that will be buried the next day, but some some disagree saying this is where the word of God needs to be preached to the people so that they get to see eternal life.

I know people differ on this one and if you want to know my thoughts on this one, stick around I will let you know.

In the last 2 milindo's that I attended at home i must say i have been entertained more than anything. I am starting to enjoy attending imilindo also it depends the church that leads imilindo. In the first one it was led by Faith mission "abasindisiwe". Part of my family attend that church and some attend "abafundi bakakrestu". If you know these churches immediately u will know why I was entertained more than crying.

Both these groups are very vocal about their beliefs and who ever you are and whatever you say they do not give you a chance instead they are the right ones according to these groups we are all wrong as they call people who do not go to the same church as them "abamnyama". In this case it was a case of 2 very judgemental groups judging each other and explaing why theirs is the right one. But what was more funny was that all the other churches like Roma, tshetshi, wisile, zion are the victims of these people this time they were watching the best match fighting with a bible the interesting match. Both groups quoting the same bible to justify their actions although one is saying the others are wrong and vise versa.

I really did enjoy this. Not sure how to explain this but... one day I will have enough time and write about it.

Incase you want to know I also subscribe to one of the groups, will let you know some other day which one.

Programme....I mean the one in the morning of the funeral. I really do not like attending that because this is where you are reminded about the person you have lost, this is where all memories come back, this is where most people cry. I am not sure this is necessary.

Will finish this some other time, but will appreciate your thoughts

Serious quote

2006-05-11T05:11:00.000-07:00

A colleague of mine sent me this quote:
"Life should NOT be a journey to the grave with the intention of arriving safely in an attractive and well preserved body, but rather to skid in sideways, champagne in one hand, smoke in the other, body thoroughly used up, totally worn out and screaming "WOO HOO - What a ride!"

What do you think

Thursday EC

2006-05-08T07:25:00.000-07:00

On thursday am going to Eastern Cape, I wonder how is life there maybe not life because nothing changes there in the deep rural villages of Eastern Cape. So no need to wonder what life is like..Poverty is the main thing. Maybe I should rephrase my question and say I wonder how is the weather there. Will find out soon but I guess it will be very cold and dry as usual during this time of the year. But am looking forward to see the other people of my family. The long journey between Cape Town and Eastern Cape it really bores me, its too long and boring.

Lighter than previous

2006-05-05T03:37:00.000-07:00

....not so serious

2day Cape Town is a bit chilly..I am dressed in all my winter clothes I am in browns if you know what I mean. Sounds like its gotta be a a very cold weekend.

...Ciaw....

2005/2006 not a good year for me so far....

2006-05-04T23:51:00.000-07:00

Not sure where to start, but there has been a series of events happening in my life or around me. First In March 05 I lost my close Aunt, Dec 05 when I was going home with my family we had a car accident and our car was written off, February 05 my father had a car accident on his way to Queenstown, April my younger sister (6yrs) was hit by a car and died on the spot. Now in May I have lost my other Aunt...

But hey I will hold my head high above my shoulders and be fine, hope this is the just a phase that is gonna pass.

Oh!!! not again

2006-05-03T06:46:00.000-07:00

As I have mentioned it before in my previous posts. I hate talking about this now and again as if I want people to feel pity for me, please that is not the case but it shows how serious it affects me me this disease.

Today at 10.00 got a call from Dad in the Eastern Cape telling me that my Aunt has passed away. Ok maybe you might say I knew that she was ill and very ill to be specific when I left her she was already in the last stages but couldn't stay to look after her, Yes I knew and indeed I was expecting this might happen anytime as I saw the situation when I left EC but hey not so soon. To me it all happened so soon I was hoping atleast after taking the treatment she will be better or the worst that she could live until December.

I am saying I knew and I was expecting this because that is what I wanted to believe but unfortunately when it finally happened I realised I was not yet ready for it, its just what I was telling myself with the hope to believe it.

Can you imagine the pain of a parent having to nurse or to take care of her sick daughters in their last days, watch sickness taking them away from her day by day, hear them crying because of a pain they are feeling while you can't help them. Imagine parent burying her daughters instead of them burrying her. Why does it have to be her? why both of them? why the same cause of death? why within such a short space of time - one last year March now this Aunt this year, Why?

I was not very close to my Aunt that passed away because she was a bit older than me, I was close because we use to live in the same house but she was an adult and I was a child unlike my Aunt that passed away last year that was like my sister. Nonetheless we lived in the same house saw everyday that makes her close enough to me that is why when she passed away it felt like a part of me was taken away.

This Aunt or my Aunt was the last one still alive (36yrs), she is leaving a child 6 months old and other 2 older sons now my grandmother will need to be a mother to these children. How long will she be alive herself because she is an old woman in her early 80's to take care of these kids. Will she be able to take care of these kids because she is very old. Sooner or later they will be orphans form part of the SA Stastistics of children left by parents at a young age because of age.

Anyway we all going to die one day that I know and they were also going to die even if it was not HIV related, but still the thought of of them being killed by HIV related deseases makes me more scared and helpless.

I know this is not just my story, its a story of hundred of other South Africans out there.

Brothers and sisters we are together in this struggle...

Smoking on the trains

2006-04-26T01:16:00.000-07:00

Trains are supposed to be no smoking zones atleast that is what signs on the trains are telling us and also announcements that Metrorail keep making on their radio stations. Almost everybody if not everybody by now is aware that no smoking is not allowed on the trains, but believe me there are still people that smoke in the trains even today, what do you call this? stubborn, stupid, ignorant, I wish I had enough edjectives to explain what I think of these people, unfortunately my english 3rd language taught me of few of these.

Anywho I was still complaning about these people, you know its not like we don't smoke because we don't have cash to buy cigarrettes, we don't smoke because we do not like the smell and for other reasons so I don't understand why should people keep on smoking in public places. Trains are a public place it is a public transport for goodness sake so paleez stop smoking.

Metrorail service leaves a lot to be desired

2006-04-21T07:54:00.000-07:00

I am one of Metrorail's customers, maybe that is not the right word because if I was a customer I wouldn't be treated like this, Rephrase that I am one of the people that always use Metrorail to and from work every day. I am very dissappointed at their so called new improved train timetables for Cape Town. According to what I heard {protecting my sources} this new timetable is supposed to come with improvements, more trains added, and transport as a whole being more convinient especially during peak hours. I will not try and talk on behalf of Western Cape people, or even Cape Town people but I will only comment about what I know and have experienced in my route to work from Bellville to Cape Town. For starters in the so called improved new timetable they have stopped the "Express" trains, some might not be familiar with this terminology yase trainini (if you are one of those - express trains are those that do not stop in all stations but stop in main stations only, some call it special). Anywho, I was still mourning about ii-trains. All trains that pass Parow station which is where I catch my train are all stations, and I've been told this happens all the time during winter so there must be a good reason that someone has to do such a thing, but I would also love to know what the reason is. As far as I can see it does not look like there are any added trains in that line especially in the morning. In the mornings we are all crambed into these courages [amakhareji] full, with lots of people standing in the passages, and these trains will stop in all the stations although there is no space for people to come in, if you have not been to a train hear it from me it is very uncomfortable to stand in the passage kulamakhareji ka-first class. Can Metrorail try something else a more working timetable please. Some people have cars but because they are responsible citizens they prefer to use public transport so that they do not contribute to the heavy traffic and air pollution which is caused by carbon emission from the cars.

While still on it, I really hate those blue and yellow trains that are used in the Simon's town route they are really not comfortable. They look very nice from outside but the minute you are inside they are bad. Hope they are not making more of these.

AIDS A reality

2006-04-20T04:59:00.000-07:00

I am a bit down while writing this, but I will continue to write anyway because I want to express my feelings about this maybe I will feel better afterwards. Aids is a reality and people are dying left and right, in urban areas, townships, villages there is just no place to hide from this desease(sp). Sometimes when people talk about it at a disatance on radio, tv etc its not as serious as when you see people dying because of it in front of your eyes feeling helpless especially your own family members and close friends. Most people don't understand this until it hits their own families maybe what is painful is not that they have this uncurable diseases but the way it kills them is what really is painfull for me.

I have lost a close family member from this disease, she was really close to me we went to school together until tertiary that is how how close we were, she started being sick few years ago but became serious 2 years back, started loosing weight, became very sick, sometimes looked like she has lost her mind, couldn't move until to a stage where she couldn't talk move or even eat and you could only see bones and she passed away last year in March. This disease is very cruel... Not because it took her away from me but because of how it took her away from me.

Now I have 2 more family members 1 is also very close to me he is also dying because of this, He is now at a stage where the pain is written in his face, when you look at him your eyes become full of tears but you also want to be strong for him so that he can be strong.

I am not sure how am i supposed to handle this, society expects me to continue working like every thing is normal, wake up in the morning go to work and come back but inside my heart is in pieces because of this. This is becoming too much for me as an individual. On one hand I can't just leave my job and go and look after my dying family and friends because I have responsibilities and financila commitments.

Securities on strike

2006-04-20T04:50:00.000-07:00

I must say thanks God there are blogs where we can express our feelings or practise our freedom of speech, oh did I say speech maybe freedom of writing (he,he,heeee..ee). Security guards are our fathers, mothers, brothers and sisters even friends, but I must say I don't like how they handle themselves during their strikes. Everytime the security guards go on strike something always go wrong, either someone is killed or someone gets injured or assulted by these people or even worse they steal in shops. What's all this. To my little understanding about Unions and members, unions are supposed to take control of their members so that they do not go around vandalisisng people's properties or assulting fellow securities on duty.

If Unions can't control their members I guess there is no reason for them to go on strike because we do not want a situation where if the guards are on strike it means we can't go to town because we might be assaulted. Next time if securities get out of control or even members of any union get out of control during a planned march or boycott the union must be fined so that the members can pay.

This is really not a good Public Relations for our country.

A friend of mine

2006-04-20T04:42:00.000-07:00

I have a strange friend of mine and her name is ...., she is very strange in many ways but what happened y'sterday made me think u know what this gal is really strange. She was invloved in an accident and indeed she informed us and we supported her in many ways, although she is a bit far locationwise from most of her friends. When I thought Ok this was over y'sterday she sent us an email that she was going to be operated because she had head injuries, mind you she sent this email in the sfternoon, and the surgery was supposed to take place in that same afternoon, now my next question was when was she made aware of this? why did she keep it to herself? because its very serious and for sure she needed support, still all my questions do not have answers. Called some few friends of ours yesterday hoping they knew something about this but to my surprise none of them knew this.

I really don't understand this gal..... but I love her none the less, first she doesn't tell us her birthday because apparently it means nothing to her....quiet wierd neh......thought so too

2006-02-10T05:04:00.000-08:00

My name is Toto married with 2 sons. I grew up in Matatiele in a small village called Luxeni. I matriculated in a Roman catholic high school called Mariazell. I went to M L Sultan Technikon to do a diploma in Public Relations. After working for Unitra Community Radio for a year I decided to go and further my studies that is when I got a sponsorship from the Department of Communication to go and study at National Electronic Media Institute of Southern Africa and register for Information design. I am currently working in PTA